Some last echo

Anger
tides

In the shell of a life
made of many lives
in the stream of a fear
built on many fears
I long for all the places
I’ve never been to
I strive for all the words
I’ve never listened to

beware the rain
beware the snow
beware the men
you think you know

beware the pain
beware the joy
beware the things
your dreams destroy

Beware the walls
Beware the eyes
Beware the voice
that feeds on lies

beware the time
beware the truth
beware the odds
they put you through

In the wake of the anger tide
That rises from within
I hear a voice in my head
and it goes like this

In the wake of the anger tide
That rises from within
I hear a voice in my head
and it goes like this

beware the scorching rain
beware the melting snow
beware the evil men
you often think you know

beware the empty pain
beware the cruel joy
beware the little things
your dreams always destroy

Beware the closing walls
Beware the crying eyes
Beware the only voice
that feeds on all their lies

beware the morphing time
beware the ugly truth
beware the strange odds
they'll try to put you through

In the shell of a life
made of many lives
in the stream of a fear
built on many fears
I long for all the places
I’ll never go back to
I throw up at the words
They made me say to you

Like a broken flag

The darkness lifted me
And dropped me to a place
Where all my choices
were guided by elusive voices
Where all my thoughts were planted
by the same evil hands
that painted the world black

Every time I blink my eyes
I wake up in a loud place
in a place that
I had never seen before

Every time I open my eyes
I wake up in a strange place
A place that
I had never seen before

I need to find a quiet place
I need to take a little time
I need to heal up
I need to be fine

I need to find a better place
I need to save whatever life they left me
I need to be
Where they’ve got no claim on me

This is not the life I would have chosen
this is not the place I would have chosen
This is just
a cruel and bitter life
this is just another thing that makes me cry
this is just a miserable hole in the ground

This much I know
When the darkness strikes again
I’ll waive around
like a broken flag
Prey to a wind
that doesn’t even know I exist

There is a world of light
waiting for me
when I get better
I can see it
But I don’t know
how to reach it

The
traveller

I was angry with my friend
I told my rage, my rage did end
I was angry with my foe
I told it not, my rage did grow

I am angry with myself
I tell my strife, my strife does end
I am angry with my mind
I tell it not, my strifes command

I'm angry with the world
I'll close my eyes, my eyes will fall
I'm angry with you all
I'll bite my tongue right as you call

No one will see me moving
I’ll be by his side
In the cities in the sand

No one will see me coming
I’ll be by his side
In the quiet of the stream

I was angry with my friend
I told my rage, my rage did end
I was angry with my foe
I told it not, my rage did grow

I am angry with myself
I tell my strife, my strife does end
I am angry with my mind
I tell it not, my strifes command

No one will see us coming
when we forge chains
not even god can break

No one will hear us screaming
when we destroy our fears
in places beyond space and time

Bound by laws
We will not stand
tied by rules
We shall not wait

He’ll be by my side
In the cities burnt by fire
and no one will see us coming
Because what we do
shall never be undone

Dissolved

Dashed to pieces the light drew me
as your son,
you as my father,
her as my mother,
him as my brother.
 And a moment later
I was a stone
Dissolved by time
Thrown into thin air
by the arms of destiny

Picked up by those
who walk among the shadows
And eventually lifted up
to a pair of drunken lips

Nothing was enough.
Nothing is ever enough.
Nothing will ever be enough.
Nothing.
Ever.
Enough.

No one

No one
can atone
No one makes amend
No one will pretend
No one takes a stand
Scream the voices in my head

Forgive
Forgive me
Forgive me for the harm
I have caused this world

Forgive
Forgive me
Forgive me for the pain
I have caused you all

Forget
forget me
forget me every time
I leave your words behind

Betray
Betray me
Betray me once again
because we once were friends

Leave
Leave me
Leave me way behind
amid those of your kind

Absolve
absolve me
absolve me for the things
you all consider sins

Forgive
Forgive me
Forgive me for the harm
I have caused this world

Forgive
Forgive me
Forgive me for the pain
I have caused you all

words against a wall
words against you all
words out of the hole
words that make me whole
Scream the voices in my soul

sometimes it’s hard to find
the memories I left behind
for memories are time that I borrow
to spend when I get to tomorrow
the seasons are passing one by one
I escaped the only way I knew how
I gather moments while I may
and collect the dreams I dream today
They’ll be the tokens that I will spend
when in my final moments
the gentle hand of fate
shall write the word “end”

Forgive
Forgive me
Forgive me for the harm
Forgive me for the harm
I have caused this world

A dream to end all dreams

We have traveled long together
but this is where we part ways
this is where my world
fractures

in love we begun
to light we return
until we are none
until we are one

in love we begun
to light we return
with all that is
and ever will be

in hate we begun
to dark we return
until we are none
until we are one

in hate we begun
to dark we return
with all that is not
and never will be

We have shared much together
but this is where we part ways
this is where memories
haunt me

We have traveled long together
but this is where we part ways
this is where I stand
transfixed by fear

the moment we saw
beyond ourselves
the moment we knew
nobody was there
the moment we scattered
seeds buried in darkness
the moment we dreamt
the dream to end all dreams

We have traveled long together
but this is where we part ways
this is where my fractured world
heals

this is where we lie alone
this is where we die alone
half a world away
half a world away

In a place I have never seen

Beneath the skin
Fears hold me back
Fears they protect

Beneath the dream
Fears might be
my only friends
the only friends that I need

In a place I’ve never seen
Fears give peace
to a hurting soul in need

In a world that’s never been
Fears might be kings
just a single finger
yet to lift

Truth keeps me from seeing
the world as it is
is it such a bad thing
for a troubled soul
after all ?

The truth shows its ugly face
The truth doesn’t like a quiet place
The truth often makes me cry (because)
The truth always lies

Yet in the end
This all looks vane
just like any other
old ordinary mistake.

In a place I’ve never seen
In a world that’s never been
Beneath the skin
Beneath the dream

All these sins

my sin was pride
and the wage of pride was death

my sin was wrath
and the wage of wrath was death

my sin was sadness
and the wage of sadness was death

my sin was grief
and the wage of grief was death

I wallowed in grief and anger
Until I saw my mind in bonds
Forged in loathing, disgust and haw
And rage was all I had

I wandered in grief and anger
Until I locked myself in golden bonds
Freed of time, duties and charge
And rage was all I had

Yet then all words were hollow
Promises left in a corner
I collected my sins
like glowing shards of glass
the brighter the colour
the stronger the sin

When all this is done
and I drift away in peace
I will remember not
the noise of soaring orders
but the stunning silence
of your mouth
and the crushing weight
of your mind

my sin was pride
and the cost of pride
ought to be death

my sin was rage
and the cost of rage
ought to be death

my sin was sadness
and the cost of sadness
ought to be death

my sin was grief
and the cost of grief
ought to be death

Takers

This is the place
where invisibile stars
turn my fears
into a dream forsaken
yet precious to most. 
This is the place
where a gentle breeze
blows the grains of pain
off my long, useless wander
through life.

Take my tears and take my pain
like an empty bottle takes the rain
Take my past and take my sins
like an en empty sail takes the wind
Take my hand and take my soul
like an angry demon takes its toll
Take my pride and take my life
like a bitter lover takes my wife

This is the place
where I can walk
into silent streams
that melt me
like a grain of sugar
in a deep ferocious ocean.

This is the place
where all my silent prayers
end up into the holes
of just another
lonely walk at night.

Take my tears and take my pain
like an empty bottle takes the rain
Take my past and take my sins
like an en empty sail takes the wind
Take my hand and take my soul
like an angry demon takes its toll
Take my pride and take my life
like a bitter lover takes my wife

Take me to a place
any place
but here.

A minor life

A life not lived
is a life indeed.
And no one’s to blame
for what I did.
Shall I ever meet
those in the deep ?

Mirror mirror on the wall
am I the weakest of them all ?
Mirror mirror on the wall
am I the one who takes the call ?
Mirror mirror on the wall
how can I rise after i fall ?
Mirror mirror on the wall
am I (finally) the best among them all ?

I had to set me free
of that sorrowful place
and now I venture forth
Condemned to live
a life not made
a life half lived
a life diminished
yet a life indeed

From this day forward
none of my shadows
will walk alone again
their tiny flecks of darkness
will mark my steps and words

Mirror mirror on the wall
am I finally
the best among them all ?

My
will

Leaf in a storm
Anywhere the wind blows
I drift

Ropes at my joints
Commanded like a toy
I nod

Blood in stone veins
water in a sand cup
I flow

Rugs over my shoulders
I walk

Whatever I may sow
so shall I reap
against my will

Whatever I may say
so shall I listen
against my will

Wherever I may go
so shall I stumble
against my will

Wherever I may cave in
so shall I sink
against my will

Is this what life demands of me ?
Was I supposed to see
the carvings on the stone ?
Was I supposed to see
the little stains on others’ walls ?
Because that is exactly
what your world has made me

May the time cleanse my eyes
of the evil they have seen
of the anger left within
of all the good things left undone
of all the bad things still to come

And when I finally set foot
back on solid ground
I’ll see to it
I’ll see to it all

The last of my kind

I am the last of my kind
I am the last of your kind
I am the last of any kind

I am the last of a kind
that only lives on borrowed time
I just want to resist
I am the last who exists

I just want my life to matter
I want to try to make things better
I just want to paint these walls anew
I want to sing this song to you
I just want my words to matter
I want to be more than just a beggar

I don’t want to be indifferent
to what I’ve done
I don’t want to thank
for what I don’t ask for
I don’t want to be
held hostage by anguish
I don’t want to squander
whatever time I’ve got left

Because

I am the last of my kind
I am the last of your kind
I am the last of any kind

I know there’s a deep hole in my empty heart
I know there’s bliss in all that i forget
I know there’s peace in what I forgive
I know I am leaving everything behind
-
I know I am past caring by now

I know I’ll feel whole
Some time
Some place
Some how

Because I’m told
I am the last of my kind
I am the last of any kind